With baited breath

I am sitting here with this funny taste in my mouth and thinking about where it came from. Is it my snack of Fritos and peanut butter cookies or the allergy meds I am taking to battle the wonderful life giving pollen, or is it the anticipation of tomorrows (hopefully productive) doctor visit? I guess all of these things effect me in one way or another. Tomorrow I will be visiting my surgeon to find out what he and the radiologist think about the results of my last MRI (last week). I am not sure what to expect, I guess I want to try an remain hopeful that they will be able to pinpoint the cause of the ongoing pain I am dealing with but at the same time the cynic in me expects to hear the usual run around and double talk instead of direct answers. I don't know if it is just bad luck with picking doctors or the doctors fear of repercussions from assholes but something seems to cause them to clam up when it comes to giving straight answers to my questions. I wish there was some way to weed through all the b.s. in these situations, I guess there can't be though, too many lawyers, too many idiots that want everyone but themselves to be the cause of their problems, too many doctors who honestly believe they are incapable of making mistakes, and way too many far removed insurance company officials and politicians who do not care what the effect of their actions will be on their customers well being as long as there is a way for them to deny benefits and or line their pockets somehow, that are making too many decisions without a single caring thought about the people who will be harmed in the bigger picture. It is the look out for #1 and fuck everyone else attitude that we all see on a daily basis in every aspect of our society that will eventually be the end of us all in one way or another.