I am somewhat dissapointed in some of my friends.

Funny how things don't always go as you expect, but you still have a great time. We had a party this past week for the 4th of July. I had a great time and I think all our friends did too, but the funny thing is, all the worrying and planning and trying to make sure everyone is taken care of and everyone knows where and when and how and what to bring etc... can really tire you out. I made an extra effort to plan ahead, way ahead, we started telling people in late March and still in the week before had no real idea how many folks would be there. I guess the thing that is bugging me is that nobody (of my good friends) who didn't show up even called or responded to my email invites. It just bothers me that my/our friends don't consider it important to call or RSVP. What is even more irritating is all the people who were all fired up about it and said they were really looking forward to it, then didn't show up or even call to say they had decided to do something else for the 4th. I went out of my way spending money on special food and drinks for friends with special diets and toys and games for their kids, and then to not have a call or anything..... It just pisses me off. I guess the only thing I can really do is make sure I don't do the same thing to people who invite me out, and maybe take a little more conservative effort in the planning and buying side of throwing a party.
On the other side of things we had a really great time playing games and cooking and talking and shooting off the fireworks, maybe I should focus on the good of it all. I suppose that is my dad's part of me, having a tendency towards focusing on the bad or potential bad outcome of a situation. I always hated that about him and I didn't know how destructive it could be until after he died. I have actively and somewhat successfully quelled that part of my personality but I guess some part of it is still there. It was a lot of fun and I was not too wiped out after all was said and done. I will remember that most of all.