I am somewhat dissapointed in some of my friends.

Funny how things don't always go as you expect, but you still have a great time. We had a party this past week for the 4th of July. I had a great time and I think all our friends did too, but the funny thing is, all the worrying and planning and trying to make sure everyone is taken care of and everyone knows where and when and how and what to bring etc... can really tire you out. I made an extra effort to plan ahead, way ahead, we started telling people in late March and still in the week before had no real idea how many folks would be there. I guess the thing that is bugging me is that nobody (of my good friends) who didn't show up even called or responded to my email invites. It just bothers me that my/our friends don't consider it important to call or RSVP. What is even more irritating is all the people who were all fired up about it and said they were really looking forward to it, then didn't show up or even call to say they had decided to do something else for the 4th. I went out of my way spending money on special food and drinks for friends with special diets and toys and games for their kids, and then to not have a call or anything..... It just pisses me off. I guess the only thing I can really do is make sure I don't do the same thing to people who invite me out, and maybe take a little more conservative effort in the planning and buying side of throwing a party.
On the other side of things we had a really great time playing games and cooking and talking and shooting off the fireworks, maybe I should focus on the good of it all. I suppose that is my dad's part of me, having a tendency towards focusing on the bad or potential bad outcome of a situation. I always hated that about him and I didn't know how destructive it could be until after he died. I have actively and somewhat successfully quelled that part of my personality but I guess some part of it is still there. It was a lot of fun and I was not too wiped out after all was said and done. I will remember that most of all.

Settle in and hold on!

So, life goes on. The last few years have been the most active I can remember. Brian and Kelly had a son (my first experience with that new feeling), I met Suzy, changed jobs, we fell in love, changed jobs again, moved in together (at her parents house for a while), traveled around some, stayed in the same job but changed companies, got engaged (another first), lost my dog (best friend) to lymphatic cancer, found out my brother had TC, traded my PC for a BMW, got married, bought a nice house, adopted a dog, found out Suzy's aunt had CC, got a promotion, adopted another dog, got another promotion, adopted another dog, found out Suzy had EN, found out BP's mom had CC too, found out Suz was getting a hard time from some guys at her work, got fired, sold my BMW, spent a lot of time hunting for jobs, spent a lot of time figuring out ways to pinch pennies, Suzy got fired, had a very lean Christmas, spent a lot more time job hunting, finally found a good job, traded in my truck for a new Nissan Versa, bought a new FZ1, Suzy got a new job, Frank and Sarah adopted my new nephew Zane, found out my brother in law Chris was going to be a father (with the help of his girl Ashley). Now about four years have gone by some things have settled down and love and life are going on. It is funny how you can get so used to life bouncing you around like riding in the last car on the Scream Machine, that you feel strange when there is no craziness. Well I think it is about that time, hopefully I am not jinxing it by writing this but what the hell. It has been a long time since I felt this way but I think we are finally starting to settle in.